Tomorrow at a Glance

Tomorrow is Bible Study and JJ’s first time to be left alone for a long period of time while no one is home. I hope he’ll be ok without any accidents in his crate. I guess if he has one, I’ll have to deal with it when I get home. Tomorrow is my day to bring the snack and I’m taking some apple cake, chocolates and freshly peeled mandarin oranges. I took the same thing last time. Everyone seemed to enjoy it, and I didn’t actually feel much like baking something myself, so I figured, why not?

I wanted to spend some time on the elliptical today, but I ran out of time before I could. Maybe tomorrow in between work and dinner.

I hope the weather will be kind to me in the morning. This morning I woke up with snow. I couldn’t believe it.

JJ and the Beach

Woke up this morning to find another day of sunshine and beautiful blue skies.   There is very little wind, and even though the temps are hovering around the freeze point, it’s gorgeous outside.   Marcel and I decided that it’s a good day to take JJ for his first trip to the beach and then after walking on the beach for a little while, then we’ll stop in at Aloha for a cup of coffee before heading home.   It will be interesting and fun to see how JJ does seeing the sand and the water for the first time.

It will be great to get out and keep my mind occupied.  In the meantime, before we head out, I am going to get my Bible Study lesson done so that I’ll have it ready for Tuesday.   

Life is for living-  not for just sailing along always waiting for something better to happen.  Get out today and MAKE it happen.  It doesn’t mean that everything you want will happen the first time you want it to, but keep trying- What do you have to lose??

Gratitude- March 6, 2010

I’ll be the first one to admit that I really am struggling with gratitude at the moment, although I know that in these times of sadness I really need to pause and look around me and be aware of just how many things there are in my life that I need to be grateful for. Truth is, I know that I have a blessed life, and I really am grateful for so many things, only now my vision seems to be clouded with grief.

I decided to try to focus on the positive and recognize a few of the things I have to be grateful for today.

My Gratitude List for March 6, 2010.

Today I’m Grateful For:

• Having the opportunity to know Carol and have her as my best friend for many, many years.   She was a ray of sunshine and her laughter and loving spirit was infectious.
• The friends and family who have rallied around me during this time of loss and have showed me their love and support and assured me that I am not alone.
• Marcel, for taking off from work, just so he could be here with me.
• JJ and Mister M. for making me smile through the tears.
• Having the strength to be able to find the words to share a little of Carol through my eyes.   It should be read today at the funeral.

I’ll Try Tomorrow

Last night I was feeling a LOT of anxiety about everything that has been going on, and I really wanted to pull out the fitness equipment and start using it. Marcel also said that maybe it would be good for me, but I have been so dizzy the last few days that I was afraid I’d fall off. I know it will be a good thing for me, so I’m going to try tomorrow, but right now I just don’t think I can. The sun is shining though, so I am going to try to take a while. Maybe even at the beach.

Circle of Life

Life is so weird at times. Maybe I shouldn’t call it weird, but yet challenging and conflicting. Today they will bury Carol and I’m finding it hard knowing that I’m not there with everyone else, and yet at the same time, I have another friend who is browsing for wedding invitations, because she and her fiancee are planing their wedding. I’m happy for them, but right now I’m finding it so hard to see anything through the grief. No matter what we are going through or how it may seem, life doesn’t stand still, it continues to move forward, and that’s a good thing.

Y’all forgive me as I try to work through my thoughts and try to keep myself busy.

Spinning

My mind is spinning with all that’s going on right now. Tonight is the wake (or visitation for anyone outside of the Deep South) and tomorrow morning the funeral for Carol. I’m having a difficult time thinking, eating and keeping my thoughts together, so I’m hoping that curling up in front of the HDTV with a comedy that can hopefully keep my mind off things for a little while. I’ve been feeling a rise in anxiety levels and that is not a good thing. I really need to try to keep focused as hard as it is. I need to try to laugh, even if it’s hard right now.

How Do I Spell Relief? V-A-C-A-T-I-O-N

There is so much going on right now that the one thing I think I need more than anything is a vacation. I had a great day yesterday with a baby shower for a friend of mine, given by another friend, but came home to find out that someone I love back home is in a drug induced coma due to having seizures. My first instinct was to fly back home for a while, but right now I’m just waiting to see what happens.

I need a break- from the stresses of everything, so that I can center myself and come back with a vengance. I think that a vacation fully away from everyone and everything may be the only way to do that.

Forget Calgon- I need a plane and a warm, sunny destination.

Gratitude – February 24, 2010

I haven’t written a dailiy gratitude list in a while, but even though I haven’t, I still take some time each day to be grateful for all the wonderful things in my life. There are many, and I know without a doubt that I am blessed.

My Gratitude List for February 24, 2010.

Today I’m Grateful For:

• An afternoon spent with friends over lunch, great conversation and laughter.
• The fact that the snow has once again stopped and what fell yesterday didn’t stick to the ground.
• The beautiful bouquet of roses that Desere brought me today, just because.
• Rich Chocolate Velvet coffee and a super healthy banana muffin – a recipe that I created myself.
• Marcel, for jumping in and helping me with little things when I’ve had cramps so bad I couldn’t hardly move.

Just Press Pause

Since it is that time of the month, my daily workouts came to a screeching halt, or a pause if you will. I hate it, because I was actually enjoying the way I was feeling knowing that I was burning the extra calories and on the road to dropping the pounds again. I’m still on the road to dropping the pounds, but I’ll have to wait a few days to get back on the elliptical since the cramps are killing me.

Tomorrow I have a little girls outting planned with my stylist. I also need to give her a call sometime in the near future and set up a time to get my hair cut and colored. I’m in serious need since the grey is making an appearance again. Until then, I’ll just spend a little time shopping. Oooh and Marcel also brought me home some promotional hand sanitizers that they were handing out at his work. I thought it was a really cool way to remind everyone to keep their hands clean and since I carry it with me everywhere I go, it was good to have a new bottle.

Creatures of Habit

Now that Marcel and I have started going through our insurance policies, he’s decided that maybe it’s a good idea rather than to just check up on our life insurance, to check up on all of our insurance online and see if we can get better policies with more coverage for less money.

I guess I’m just a creature of habit because I kind of like the old saying that we don’t need to fix what isn’t broken. It’s great to be informed of everything available and be educated on that, but I’m not ready to change. What we have works, and I’d prefer to leave it like that. Can I get an Amen?