Through The Tulips Words of 'Wiz'dom

July 25, 2011

Searching for Motivation

Filed under: Life's Little Hiccups — gardener @ 9:58 am

I’ve spent the last few days feeling a little run down and somewhat moody. Marcel is convinced that I have got too many ‘irons in the fire’ so-to-speak and that I really just need some down time. I’ve had that for the past two days but rather than really unwinding I’ve been thinking about other things that need to get done and other projects on the burner.

The result- a very unmotivated me. I’m hoping after a few more days or rest that my body and mind will be ready to take on the world again- In the meantime- if you need me, you just may find me curled up under the covers with my Kindle.

June 18, 2011

Rainy Days

Filed under: Health/ Fitness,Life,Life's Little Hiccups — gardener @ 6:21 am

I looked at the forecast last night and it showed rain in our city for the next week. Needless to say, I’m less than thrilled about this possibilty, since I have plans in the coming week that will involve outdoor activiites, but I’m sure I’ll figure out something if Mother Nature doesn’t cooperate.

I woke up to rain pelting against the window this morning and since I have this little stomach bug and have been so tired- I just turned over and went back to sleep. I have a feeling that I’ll be spending some time with my Kindle in the bed very shortly- My stomach seems to be feeling a little better- but I’m still trying to be careful with eating- just in case. The bright side is that it’s great for weight loss.

How are you spending your Saturday?

June 3, 2011

Oink-Oink

Filed under: Food,Life,Life's Little Hiccups — gardener @ 2:20 pm

Lately- I have been doing some serious emotional eating-    I know why-  I can think about it, recognize why I’m doing it- but yet I think about it and reocognize it while eating cupcakes, chocolate or a plethora of other things that I shouldn’t be eating on a regular basis.  

I am about to lose count of how many times I’ve wanted to ‘get back on track’ this year- and yet here I am- at the crossroads yet again.   Its about choices- and it’s time I really start getting serious making better choices and getting back to the healthy lifestyle that makes me and my body the happiest.

Stay tuned-    

Some may say I’ve failed- but one can not fail unless they give up- and that’s something I’ll never do.

May 27, 2011

About Last Night

Filed under: Life's Little Hiccups,Pets — gardener @ 8:22 am

I’m fuctioning (if that’s what you call it) on two hours sleep and as I type this am watching my little pup JJ eat his food and praying it doesn’t come back up.

As I’ve shared- there is much going on within my family at the moment- with my Uncle on his final days. I’m here- the rest of the family is there- and there’s definitely something wrong with that picture- Some things can’t be changed, so I’ll deal with it.

Sleep has been a elusive mistress anyway- so I was awake last night and around 3:30 almost to the point of drifting off- when I heard a horrid noise coming from the living room. It was JJ and he was coughing to the point of throwing up. Not just once- but at some point I lost count of just how many coughing spells he had. I woke Marcel- because throw-up of any kind doesn’t agree with me- He was less than thrilled but he cleaned it up- took JJ out for a small walk and he went back to bed. I stayed awake- kept cleaning up the throw-up and changing blankets and praying it would finally stop. It did- but long after it was daylight. My total sleep count- 2 hours.

$100.00 and a visit to the vet later-we find out that our little guy has bronchitis. He was given a shot- some antibiotics and codiene for the cough and I pray it stops soon. I feel so sorry for him. He’s finished eating- now if he can only keep it down.

May 18, 2011

Processing

Filed under: Life,Life's Little Hiccups — gardener @ 9:46 am

I mentioned a few days ago about some bad news that I received from home- I’m still processing, not so much the news- but the pain associated with those around me who are affected by the news- myself included (being that I’m a pretty emotional soul.) Towards the end of last year- my dad’s youngest brother was diagnosed with calon cancer and found a few spots on his liver- They went in, removed a section of his colon, and the part of his liver that had the cancerous spots. That was in February- and here we are mid-May and he’s found out that there is no hope.

Sadly, he found out from a doctor at the ER while there gettng fluids because he was dehydrated as opposed from his oncologist- but he had an appointment this past Monday and the doctor had no way of knowing that he hadn’t already been told. It’s one of those things that you suspect- but hearing it makes it ‘real’.

Diddy has been taking him to the doctor- and I know that hearing the news hurts diddy- and it hurts me to know people I love are hurting. His one request was to see his son and also to see another brother who lives out of town before he dies. Diddy took care of contacting his brother and I’ve been in contact with his son- my cousin and his wife. I’ve actually been in contact with them since he was diagnosed, but now they know how dire things have become- They are making a trip home and I’m glad.

There is a silver lining to all this- I’m in touch with my cousin whom I haven’t had contact with in many years- I am hoping to build a friendship by getting to know he and his wife- We are family and I have missed that connection. There is a lot to process but even in the midst of sadness- something good has happened. That’s what I’m trying to focus on right now-

May 14, 2011

News

Filed under: Life's Little Hiccups — gardener @ 10:51 am

Yesterday, I received some bad news from home and I’m still trying to figure out how to process it. I can’t say that it came as a complete surprise-but yet- it’s still something that I was hoping wouldn’t happen. I’ll be writing about it soon- but right now- I’m still trying to find the right words in order to do so.

April 21, 2011

15 Minutes

Filed under: Gratitude,Life,Life's Little Hiccups — gardener @ 9:42 am

I have 15 minutes before we’ll be heading out the door for the hospital again.    Hopefully it will be the last time for a little while, although I can’t be sure.  Nothing seems certain these days..

I seem to be on this emotional roller coaster with a few things-   Thankfully nothing related 100% to me (oher than the emotions part)  but I know that there are at least some people in this world who ‘get’ how I feel.   

Sometimes-   I bounce back and forth between thinking that being so empathetic is a curse, while other times I think it’s a good thing.   I am a firm believer that we should all be empathetic, but I often think I have enough for several people-   When I feel others hurting-  I hurt.   It’s just who I am-  I’ve tried to change it, but now accept it- but sometimes, when I feel that so many are hurting and struggling for various reasons-  it feels like a curse. 

There are always lessons to learn and silver linings to find- and for that- I’m grateful. 

I’m also grateful to those who ‘get it’, because that tells me that maybe I’m not coo-coo after all.

April 14, 2011

Train Wreck

Filed under: Life,Life's Little Hiccups,Sands of Time — gardener @ 10:54 am

Have you ever been on the outside looking in at someone who you know is a train-wreck waiting to happen, yet in spite of trying to talk to them and hope they will see what is happening- they instead pummet themselves into the victim role and refuse to see that the choices that they are making and have made are a direct result of the things that are happening in their life?  

That’s happening with someone I know right now-  It’s hard to watch and no matter what-   they don’t want to hear about making changes, even if it could mean making their problems at least maybe a little less severe.  Some wheels, once set in motion can’t be stopped, but some can at least be slowed with different choices.

It is painful to see- but we are all powerless to the choices of another.

March 25, 2011

Lasting Impressions

Filed under: Food for Thought,Life's Little Hiccups,World — gardener @ 9:39 am

I have Dr. Phil set on the DVR to record every afternoon, five days a week. I rarely have the television on during the day- even if I’m home, but I’ll go back and watch them from time to time when I have spare time on my hands. I notice that there seem to be a lot of people there needing help with drugs or other addiction issues and I’m happy that he can direct them to some of the best rehab treatment centers in the area, but I often wonder what happens to these guests after the fact. I know that sometimes they do update shows, but other times they don’t.

I remember way back in the day- before the Jerry Springer show included flying chairs- he did a lot with the homeless. I remember a homeless kid called Tweaky Dave and I often wonder what happened to him. It’s weird how some things or people leave a lasting impression- often without even realizing.

March 22, 2011

Negativity

Filed under: Food for Thought,Inspiration,Life's Little Hiccups — gardener @ 6:27 am

Several days ago I was talking to someone about negativity and how it tends to manifest within us if we aren’t careful.   I try to be a positive and happy person (most of the time) and see the best in every situation.   It isn’t always easy, but it’s something that I try to do, even though not always successful.

What I have noticed (or noticed over the last year) that when we surround ourselves with people who always see things in the negative or as a negative, that it’s quite simple to pick up that behavior.   It’s toxic and sometimes even without realizing it we can become negative.

Interstingly enough- last night I was watching TV and during a show someone mentioned a quote (I can’t remember by whom) that said,  “There aren’t negative happenings in life, but simply negative reactions.”    

I’m a firm believer that perpective is everything, and if you expect negative- you will definitely get it.   On the flip side of that coin:  it doesn’t mean that you will never be given obstacles (that’s unrealistic and a completely different topic) but it’s what you do with those obstacles that count.     You can let them be a brick wall- stopping you in your tracks, or you can use them to learn from- to add to your life experiences that leaves you richer and knowing that the biggest thing stopping us at times isn’t what happens to us- but how we choose to react to it.

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