To be nobody but yourself–in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else– means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting.
– EE Cummings, poet
I thought that while Marcel was watching soccer, that I’d turn MY computer on for the first time in days to check mail and watch last seasons Survivor that I have sitting here waiting for a rainy day. It isn’t exactly a rainy day, but he’s watching the game, so I figured now is a good of time as any.
I came across the above quotation while reading through my emails, and it really resonated with me on many different levels. It’s something I’ve been seeing alot lately- people trying to put me in the box that they want me to be in, but those who know me well know that I don’t conform well to being put in any sort of box.
I recently found myself in a position where someone else, who was thinking a particular way, about a particular subject, kept projecting these feelings and telling me that THIS was how it was. In reality that was how SHE saw it, but clearly I knew that it was NOT the case in my eyes.. It didn’t make it untrue, but it was not my reality. Eventually, this person persisted with this particular projection until I started questioning myself, and struggling.
This wasn’t from someone who was trying to manipulate or hurt me, but yet someone who saw something completely different than I did, and I allowed their opinion to cause doubt and make me question myself.
Eventually, I had to take a long hard look in the mirror, and with a little encouragement realized that we are all different and don’t see things through the same glasses. I knew that above all, I had to be true to myself, and the rest would fall into place.
I believe we all need these little reminders from time to time. I know I do. After all, we’re only human.
My Gratitude List for June 6, 2009.
Today I’m Grateful For:
- Marcel surprising me with a day out.
- 4 1/2 pounds of the sweetest strawberries I’ve ever eaten for 4.00.
- Finding the perfect pair of white sandals, for a great price.
- A book filled with discount coupons for museums, which will be perfect for Samantha’s visit next month.
- Finding my favorite Green Tea bags on sale, and stocking up!
we often think we are so, in Control, but when we find that we are not, and we have sometimes opposed our own desires by our resistance to the ideas, prevalent in the more ancient versions of honor, integrity, the self subjugation of women to the man in their life, then when we see why others haven’t been able to give them selves to us, as we desired, then we at the same time see the Work of God, by Realizing that God has been using our reluctance, their inability to act, all due to the acts of an enemy common to both of us and the world, then we suddenly see, light opeing on the problems we experienced, the problems faced by loved ones, and the Handiwork of God himself, all coming together to provide a solution giving us and our loves what we all wanted from the beginning, and God’s handiwork as he brings all to pass for those we love and ourselves and then we understand, we really aren’t against those most ancient ideas after all, just were confused by the problems and the opposition of men who never loved us or anyone else and we can then love our loves and God himself as We should have been able to in the beginning, but that is practically over now, that we know all of the above. but still not over, there is the Rest of the Story, as Paul Harvey said it, and its not over till its over although I don’t believe any Fat lady will sing the End after all.
Comment by Marching,..Secret Garden,in arrears,lack funs — June 7, 2009 @ 12:41 am