Through The Tulips Words of 'Wiz'dom

Is it just me, or has this weekend flown past? It seems like I blinked my eyes and we went from Friday to Sunday. Do not pass go- Do not collect $200.00.

Maybe Saturday sort of faded off into Sunday, because I spent most of the day cleaning yesterday. It wasn’t exactly how I wanted to spend my Saturday, but truth is, I’d been ‘playing’ so much the past week, that several things in house had been left unattended, and I knew they needed to be taken care of. I did get almost everything done that I’d hoped to get done, and that left me today to spend time with Desere and the boys when they came for a visit, only I still need to get in the bath, plus do this weeks Bible Study, and somewhere in between I need to have dinner.

Marcel went to his moms for Sunday dinner, but he was suppose to be working (but took the day off so he could watch the soccer match), so I decided to stay home and play catch-up. The week is shaping up to be a busy one, but there is much rain in the forecast, which could hinder some of my plans. I’m happy with it either way, because I have a stack of things I can do around here.

I’ve also been wanting to create some new jewelry, something I haven’t had much time for lately. I have several new ideas, so I need to see how they come together, before I forget what ideas it was that I had in the first place.

As much as I’d like to stay and ramble, I really should get my Bible Study done, and get something to eat. I feel like I haven’t eaten all day, although nothing could be further from the truth.

My Gratitude List for April 26, 2009.

Today I’m Grateful For:

• An afternoon spent with Desere and the boys.
• Unexpected gifts.
• Spicy tomato soup.
• Pushing through my work-out, when I really wanted to stop.
• Rain.

Yesterday when Anna & I were headed towards the train station, where we would part ways and head to our prospectove homes, we passed the old City Hall, which apparently has become “the” place to wed on Fridays.

In front of the building was a parade of parked cars, and leading the pack was a Mercedes bus that appeared to have stepped right out of the 60’s.

As we stood there admiring the colorful bus, we noticed the doors to city hall open, so we decided to wait and see if we could get a glimpse of the happy couple.

Anna and I joked about whether they would be dressed in 60’s garb, and whether it was a “themed” wedding, or if the happy couple were actually misplaced “flower children”.

It wasn’t long before we had the opportunity to see for ourselves that they were the real deal.

They drew quite a crowd, and being the romantic that I am, I really enjoyed sharing in this piece of their history, even if they were oblivious to me and the other onlookers.

Mr. & Mrs. Whomever-you-are, I wish you a long, happy life together, with much peace and lots of love.

I realized today that something is amiss with me these days. What, exactly, I haven’t been able to put my finger on, but I’m trying.

I would suspect that it’s a combination of a plethoria of ‘little things’, which have been sitting, unprocessed in this grey matter of mine, and have snowballed into something larger than it should be.

That alone should be enough- but instead, I’ve found myself falling prey to some pretty negative and destructive activities the last few days. Don’t worry, by destructive, I don’t mean I’m off drinking, doing drugs, participating in lewd sexual behaviour  or anything like that- but I’ve found myself being pretty negative, and by allowing the negativity to take root, it’s created other problems- or shall I say- I’ve allowed it to manifest in other areas.

I recognize this; which is the first step to working through it and correcting the problem. Now, I have to understand the ‘whys’ and go from there, plus take steps to prevent this from happening in the future.

We all have speedbumps, but it’s how we react to them that make the difference, and my reaction has been far from stellar. I’m only human, so flawed- but I have to be true to me, and get myself back on track- and I will do just that.

How? I’m not sure, but I will get there. You can bet on that- I won’t stay down for long. I’m not only determined, but extremely stubborn. I think I get that equally honest from both parents, whom I adore.

Even though I’m not feeling very ‘grateful’ at the moment, I know the importance of finding the little things in every day life to be grateful for. Even though I may not ‘feel’ grateful, I am.

My Gratitude List for April 18, 2009.
Today I’m Grateful For:

• A quiet evening home alone.
• Silence-
• Recognizing when things are amiss, and working to sort through.
• Cherry blossoms.
• Chococcino (Chocolate cappuccino)

I really love that I can be any and everywhere, and jot out a few words here and there, or even share a picture if I have the urge.

I’m across the street in this photo. Well, you can’t actually see me, but you can see spring in all it’s glory. Isn’t it gorgeous?