Through The Tulips Words of 'Wiz'dom

These aren’t roses (obviously) but I took this photo when I was out of town last week.  It was right after a needed rain shower that brought relief to the warm temps we were feeling.    I love how rain always enhances the color of things.

Rhododendrons make me smile.   In fact, most flowers do.   Before I stopped to enjoy them, I took notice that most people were buzzing past them without even a glance to enjoy their beauty.    Isn’t that what so many of us do?

We become so busy getting from point A to B, or from this appointment to the next and fail to notice the beauty right in front of our eyes.    Sometimes that beauty is another person and sometimes it’s a flower.

Do you take the time to notice?

I have not intentionally abandoned this space- I’ve had a lot to say, but so much has been happening that I’ve felt a little discombobulated at times. Thankfully that isn’t much the case anymore.

I burned my hand, have been doing some traveling, plus working. Those are all good things and I have to say that after all the bumps and road blocks that life has continued to remain good. It doesn’t mean it hasn’t been a bumpy ride for a good portion of this year thus far, but it does mean that as always those things pass and the journey continues. I am extremely blessed. It doesn’t mean that I won’t have struggles, but I know that I will make it through them as long as I remain true to myself and stay on the path I should be on. When I veer in the wrong direction- things become off-balance, very much like a washing machine that has all the clothes settled on to one side.

My biggest Ah-Ha moment this year- is realizing that keeping balance for me is living outside of my comfort zone, not in it. I know that sounds crazy, but in that comfort zone is where complacency happens. That’s the last thing I want or need. I believe for me to grow that doesn’t mean getting comfortable where I am and staying there- that I’ve got to keep moving- that’s where the real change happens. It’s time to get uncomfortable.

I’ve been going through quite a bit emotionally lately- and quite honestly I had a moment where I wondered if things would ever change.   Marcel said that it isn’t like me to think so drastic and while he’s right- sometimes when everything hits at once it seems like it may not end.

But the old saying what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger is true.

Yesterday I woke up and it was as though a flip had switched and I felt completely different.    I no longer had the feeling of being overwhelmed with grief and sadness, but instead I felt like ‘me’ again.     I’m not one to run from things since I know it will only show up again down the road- so I’ve taken the time to ‘feel, deal and now ultimately heal’.

I feel great!  Carol’s birthday would have been two days ago and I thought about her and smiled.   I remembered all the wonderful times we had together and celebrated those memories.   I will always miss her- but I’m so grateful for the time we had together.

I have a gratitude app that I write my gratitudes in daily-(a recent thing) but I still want to share them here from time to time- if not daily.  I think it makes a difference to focus on the things in life that I’m grateful for-   and that isn’t always the happy, happy, joy, joy moments, but also the ones that make me sad, because even for those I’m grateful- for it is then when I learn the most.

Today’s bits of gratitude.

• I’ve mentioned it a lot lately- but I’m so grateful for the people in my life that know me to the depths of my soul- who I am, what I stand for, and accept me for the person that I am.
• For recommitting myself to good health both mentally and physically and all that it embodies.
• People who continue to believe in and support my business.
• Marcel and our relationship.   He is one of my biggest cheerleaders.
• Vacation plans.