Through The Tulips Words of 'Wiz'dom

When I started this journey of 30 days to honesty- I promised myself I’d make sure I finished this no matter what. I committed myself to doing that, and here we are- 30 days later and time for the last piece of honesty.

I’m not sure who all has read these and who hasn’t, but this journey has definitely caused me to think- to pause and look at my life and search my soul on several occasions, and to be authentic (something that I’m striving to be each and every day). I would like to say that I walk away from this experience with a little more ‘wiz’dom, or maybe a little more knowledge about myself. Maybe you learned something about me- or maybe you didn’t. Either way- it’s ok with me, because I learned something about me- that I need to live in the moment more than what I’ve been doing. I’m still working out the details on how to do that, because sometimes things happen (like death) that leave me spinning my wheels and wondering which way is up.

The great thing about life is that it’s a journey of lessons and I happen to be a willing student. Are you?

Day 30- One last moment, in great detail.

This is actually in direct relation to another moment I described earlier in the month- only this one takes place in the Netherlands and not in Prague. My friend Vivian and I were in the city of Utrecht and we were walking around exploring and she suggested that we visit this huge tower “Dom Tower” and climb to the top. I could see that it was massive, but I figured ‘why not’, since I’m always up for an adventure. What I didn’t know is that this particular adventure would take us up more than 465 steps to reach the top.

I remember hearing that number and thinking- “Am I serious- I can’t do that.” but as quickly as I allowed myself to think that- I squashed the negative dialogue and knew that I WAS going to do it and I did. At a certain point, you get to the main bell tower area and the guide tells you if you want to go further to feel free. It’s the last little way and I remember Vivian looking at me and saying we didn’t have to go that last little way. We walked around a little while and I commented that if we didn’t do it, we’d be sorry that we didn’t, so in the end- we decided to go for it after all. We made it to the top and not without a bit of panting before we got to the top of that winding staircase, but we did it.  (The picture to your left is the view from the top looking down.)

Another moment when I realized that I really could do anything if I set my mind to it. It was a great moment, and I’m happy that I shared the experience with my friend Vivian. I’m also happy that she came up with the idea- so Thank you Vivi! I miss you!

Thanks to y’all who have stuck around and read these. I hope you walk away with a better understanding of who I am- and what makes me ‘tick’.