I few nights ago I had a meltdown on the phone with mom and sometime during the course of the conversation I apologized to her for feeling as though I’m negative. She assured me that I’m not a negative person but that I’ve been tossed some pretty negative situations lately and they’ve all had an effect on me, maybe even more than I know.
It really bothers me to think that I’ve allowed any of the poison dished out by others to seep into my soul and become part of who I am. I know ” I ” am not a negative person, but I also know that being around negativity often is toxic and can seep into your life before you realize. That’s what I felt was happening, and probably another reason this vaction couldn’t be happening at a better time.
I want to spend more time focusing on the ‘great’ things in my life and not the insane things that others do that I have no control over. That’s sometimes easier said than done- but practice makes perfect, right?
If all goes according to schedule- tomorrow at this time we’ll be in the air and headed home. Before we go- I want to kick off the vacation with a few moments of gratitude.
Today I’m Grateful For:
- Meeting the work goal that I set for myself earlier this year.
- Being blessed with wonderful friends.
- Feeling truly loved for who I am- faults and all.
- Not having to cook on our last night home- Soup from my mother-in-law.
- Moments of silence and an unexpected project that I wasn’t expecting.
I wish you hugs – especially at times you feel like that!! You are not negative and negativity is indeed highly contagious. But you are not at all poisoned. Home time for you.
Comment by Maggie — November 15, 2010 @ 1:23 pm