Earlier in the week I made a commitment to myself to start writing again- to find my voice- to get back to what I know for sure- that there is so much beauty in this world & it’s worth celebrating.
Don’t get me wrong- I haven’t forgotten that, but at the same time- I have had to learn to deal with my ‘stuff’ that I thought I had already dealt with- It’s a work in progress.
The day after writing that last post- I had to laugh at the irony- (or maybe it’s the full moon happening and the beginning of Spring), but things shifted. I’ve seen some things clearly that I have only ‘thought’ before.
There have been people in my life who I have essentially outgrown at this point in my life. I know- that may sound mean-spirited, but nothing could be further from the truth- Sometimes, we change and grow- and our relationships do not, and while that is perfectly fine- as we all grow in our own manner, when we realize that we are being not only lied to, but also about- it changes our vision in a major way.
I mentioned to someone the other day- how one of the best gifts I was ever given in a friendship that ended for several years was that I learned the importance of healthy boundaries. Before that time in my life, I don’t think anyone had ever trampled my boundaries and they haven’t successfully done so since. It doesn’t mean they haven’t tried, but it means that now I stand firm in my boundaries and don’t allow them to be crossed- no matter what. It isn’t always easy, but it is important. Those who fight against it with blatant disregard are fodder for thought as to why?
Every day I show up and love- That won’t change- because I believe EVERYONE deserves love and kindness. When lies are involved and manipulation- then that turns to a more cautious type of love from a distance. It doesn’t mean I love you any less, but I do love me more. Respect is always given- trust is earned.
They say on the other side of this full moon magic awaits- I’m believing in that and can’t wait to see what the coming months bring- I know it’s going to be something of beauty.
As for now- Dinner awaits…