The one thing I’ve dropped the ball on the last couple of months has been my daily musings- I still write here and there, but I have began focusing on so many other things- at some point something has to take back seat- and thus far it had been writing. I’m planning to change that.
Along with the weather- November has brought a huge shift in many things in my life. I continue to feel untethered at times and yet, part of me feels more grounded than I ever have. It’s contradictory to say the least, yet not. It all boils down to where I am right now- and with so many things I feel more connected than I have since the beginning of the pandemic and everything leading up to it.. and others, I’m realizing how deep the crap show of learned behavior is in my life and ‘unlearning’ is a huge process that takes a LOT of energy at times.
Part of my unlearning has been not only acknowledging what doesn’t work, but also going back to check myself when I noticed I’m going down a slippery slope- be it with emotions- food- the list goes on…
Over the weekend- I’ve noticed I’ve been eating more things that I normally don’t indulge in- which there is nothing wrong with the occasional indulgence, but I know how easily I can make an indulgence a ‘norm’ and that isn’t the life I want for myself. Balance- all things in balance.
I’ve been able to recognize the behavior and now I’m working on getting back to what is important to me- that fits within my big picture- I have given myself a small goal for the next month and a half- and we will see where it takes me.
=Work is also picking up a bit as the holiday season is coming our way- I’m very grateful for this- and yet- here is where I want to do so much more- but I know that in doing so, I may overwhelm myself and find myself slipping into old patterns. Rather, I’m focusing on what works and what doesn’t and how each feels-
Creatively- I am feeling really inspired and happy. Grateful for the opportunities that come my way & all that go along with them.
Walking continues to be a place where I listen and learn- confront myself and my thoughts and work through all the things I am learning to let go of- including trying to understand and package prettily why some things have no rhyme and reason- they simply are.
Life has given me a gift- and I don’t intend to waste it.